This one was inspired by the rather contemplative and introspective mood I’ve been carrying around with me all day.
I also feel the urge to retreat, light candles (nope, I do not have a Christmas tree, because I feel sorry for the trees [no judgement – it’s just another ‘thing’ of mine 😉 ] ), do yoga, pranayama and meditate.
I wish to express my gratitude on this day for being loved, safe, warm and sound.
So, for this evening, I’m keeping it short and wishing you all a very
May all beings in all the worlds be peaceful and happy.
For today’s Advent day 23: little Sugar Plum Fairy honours us with a dance.
White Peacock follow-up
Because I did not want to offer you yet another white peacock illustration, I just hinted its relevance with the Sugar Plum Fairy wearing and carrying its feathers.
I actually stopped thinking about the white peacock since my last white peacock illustration. But, today white peacock came to remind me of its relevance for 2017. And so I wanted to share a follow-up:
Nope, no peacocks walking around in the area. If I wanted to see a peacock in real life, I would have to go to the zoo. But spirit animals can appear in various ways (at least, that is what they do with me).
Today, the white peacock was the first thing I saw upon opening my Facebook account. A friend shared a post with a white peacock fanning his tail. Such a beautiful sight!
Therefore, I felt further research into the meaning of this beautiful creature was necessary. White peacock had something more to say to me and I wanted to get to the bottom of it.
What it said was profound and it started with a question:
‘Who am I’
WOW! This is THE question!
Am I a daughter, auntie, lover, friend, sister, cousin, niece; a communication specialist, an IT professional, a dancer, an artist, a traveller; a coach, a friend, a teacher, a writer, a shaman, a spiritual aspirant/intuitive/healer?
I am actually all the aforementioned, I am also more than that and at the same time nothing of that! THAT is and is not at the same time. Finding THAT shall be the quest of 2017!
Here a very quick illustration for today’s Advent day 19, because my day was spent wrapping Christmas gifts:
I really enjoy wrapping presents. A lot of love and attention to detail goes into the gifts I wrap. I’ve never managed to get a paper, add a ribbon and call it a day.
Most commonly, I use wrapping tissue in all possible colours and layer them. To me, wrapping tissue is the watercolour amongst the wrapping papers. And, I always have a stock of wrapping tissue in various colours at home.
Another type of wrapping paper I like to use is the natural brown one. There are endless possibilities with this paper.
Finally, on some occasions I will even use fabrics.
It just makes me happy, when those on the receiving end not only enjoy the gift but the process of seeing the gift and unwrapping it, too.
As a child, I used to make many, many Christmas presents for my parents. No matter how small the gift, each one would be wrapped separately.
Presents wrapped-up were (and still are) a delight to my eyes. So much so, that I would prolong the opening moment to such extent that my parents would get all jittery and started persuading me to start opening the gifts!
When I finally gave in to their wish, I would take it nice and slow with unwrapping. Ribbon after ribbon, sticky tape after sticky tape. I made sure no paper or ribbon was ruined. Because, you know, maybe it could be used to make something – I don’t know – just something.
Still today, I am not the tear open gift ‘unwrapper’. I still enjoy looking at wrapped gifts – even if they are not meant for me.
I guess it’s just my ‘thing’.
(In case you were wondering, I’ve never ironed wrapping paper… ok, ribbons and fabrics? yes; paper? no)
Do you have a ‘thing’ when it comes to gift wrappings?
Usually, I don’t write about my birthday – but today something is somewhat different.
Yesterday’s ‘White Peacock’ illustration was so disturbing to me. I literally loathed it! And this feeling continued throughout the night and during today’s Advent and, well, my birthday, too.
I decided, the illustration needed to be revisited. I needed to create an improved version for today’s advent – although I had many other ideas: cake with candles, gingerbread man with birthday cake, huge cupcake with candle, Mrs Santa baking birthday cake, etc.
But the power of the White Peacock was stronger and demanded my attention. And, it was only after another session of peacock feather and symmetry frustration that I understood why.
The way I see it, birthdays mark the beginnings of a personal new year.
And although, in my case, the general New Year is only two weeks away from my personal one, these transitions happen differently, yet possess identical power in terms of introspection.
Every general New Year, I seek out an animal spirit totem that will guide me with its wisdom through the new year.
To find the animal spirit totem, I will use a deck of cards. If a real-life animal gets my attention before I lay the deck of cards on New Year’s eve, I will go with it. Last year it was a gecko and it indeed guided me well through this year.
Sometimes, it takes me a while to register the animal that is seeking my attention.
Like with the white peacock, where it took me a good day of annoyance over an illustration to tune into its symbolism.
To recognise the animal messenger (whether in meditations, dreams, in real life, in my mind, or even whilst googling for something entirely different), something in my mind, heart or soul needs to start to move (annoyance – or amazement, awe, disgust, etc.). It usually triggers some kind of emotional or cognitive response.
And this is what happened today:
I was working on the peacock illustration when I received a beautiful birthday message from a very dear friend of mine that touched me to tears. One of the things he wrote was:
May you shine like a Sun for centuries in the millions of hearts! ‘Lavanya’ [meaning of name] is the life force and you represent that! ~ Madan
I was not feeling ‘unhappy’ today. I had a nice day. But maybe I could describe the feeling with ’empty’ or ‘pointless’ and still discontent with the ‘bloody’ peacock.
Upon reading Madan’s touching message, things shifted to the better. I also felt the urge to research white peacock animal spirit totem meanings.
I discovered, there is a connection between Madan’s message, the meaning of my name and the message of the white peacock.
In short, if I really wish to tap into my life force, the force (wait a minute, this reminds me: the new Star Wars movie is out! 😉 – anyways, where was I? Ah yes – ) that makes me shine from within and gives me the ability to touch hearts as I move down the path of life: White Peacock will be my guide in the upcoming year.
Also, quite clear to me now: the illustration is not to my liking yet, because I need yet to ‘become’ the White Peacock.
There is much more to the White Peacock’s message, but I will leave it at this for now. I’ve got 365 days to imbibe its message and teachings – and to get the illustration right! – Don’t worry, I will not post ‘a peacock a day’ until 17th Dec 2017! 😀