Yep, I’m a full-fledged Sagittarius.
Usually, I don’t write about my birthday – but today something is somewhat different.
Yesterday’s ‘White Peacock’ illustration was so disturbing to me. I literally loathed it! And this feeling continued throughout the night and during today’s Advent and, well, my birthday, too.
I decided, the illustration needed to be revisited. I needed to create an improved version for today’s advent – although I had many other ideas: cake with candles, gingerbread man with birthday cake, huge cupcake with candle, Mrs Santa baking birthday cake, etc.
But the power of the White Peacock was stronger and demanded my attention. And, it was only after another session of peacock feather and symmetry frustration that I understood why.
The way I see it, birthdays mark the beginnings of a personal new year.
And although, in my case, the general New Year is only two weeks away from my personal one, these transitions happen differently, yet possess identical power in terms of introspection.
Every general New Year, I seek out an animal spirit totem that will guide me with its wisdom through the new year.
To find the animal spirit totem, I will use a deck of cards. If a real-life animal gets my attention before I lay the deck of cards on New Year’s eve, I will go with it. Last year it was a gecko and it indeed guided me well through this year.
Sometimes, it takes me a while to register the animal that is seeking my attention.
Like with the white peacock, where it took me a good day of annoyance over an illustration to tune into its symbolism.
To recognise the animal messenger (whether in meditations, dreams, in real life, in my mind, or even whilst googling for something entirely different), something in my mind, heart or soul needs to start to move (annoyance – or amazement, awe, disgust, etc.). It usually triggers some kind of emotional or cognitive response.
And this is what happened today:
I was working on the peacock illustration when I received a beautiful birthday message from a very dear friend of mine that touched me to tears. One of the things he wrote was:
May you shine like a Sun for centuries in the millions of hearts! ‘Lavanya’ [meaning of name] is the life force and you represent that! ~ Madan
I was not feeling ‘unhappy’ today. I had a nice day. But maybe I could describe the feeling with ’empty’ or ‘pointless’ and still discontent with the ‘bloody’ peacock.
Upon reading Madan’s touching message, things shifted to the better. I also felt the urge to research white peacock animal spirit totem meanings.
I discovered, there is a connection between Madan’s message, the meaning of my name and the message of the white peacock.
In short, if I really wish to tap into my life force, the force (wait a minute, this reminds me: the new Star Wars movie is out! 😉 – anyways, where was I? Ah yes – ) that makes me shine from within and gives me the ability to touch hearts as I move down the path of life: White Peacock will be my guide in the upcoming year.
Also, quite clear to me now: the illustration is not to my liking yet, because I need yet to ‘become’ the White Peacock.
There is much more to the White Peacock’s message, but I will leave it at this for now. I’ve got 365 days to imbibe its message and teachings – and to get the illustration right! – Don’t worry, I will not post ‘a peacock a day’ until 17th Dec 2017! 😀
May the force be with you!